take care.

i walked a lot today.

my ankle hates me.

its ultra swollen and bruised.

Stress.

I have this uncanny ability to be ultra-freaking out worried about an issue then 20 or so minutes later i get distracted by something else and I dont worry about it anymore.

For the past week these awful things (usually my own fault. okay every time) have come up. I freak out. I worry. I get upset. Then its over.

I want to think that I am "laying my burdens at the feet of Jesus."

But i know that I am not consciously doing that.

Is that how good our Lord is? Immediately coming to our rescue? I think so.

The Lord knows that I have plenty going on in my life right now and I dont need extra stress so He ever-so-lovingly distracts me.

Thank You Jesus.

Here is something else I am always thinking about:

I can never decide if I am okay in being by myself.

There are 2 kinds of people:

the people who are never alone

the people who thrive in solitude

As i walk around the dorm, I peek in the open doors and just see what people are doing.

yes, I'm a big creep but i

1. want to see what people are doing

and

2. want to catch a glimpse of what their dorm looks like

anyways, i will see people alone in their rooms and I wonder

"are you choosing to be by yourself?"

"do you enjoy being by yourself?"

I have been spending more of my free time alone these days. I usually like to be in groups that are loud and crazy, but lately I have just wanted to be in my dorm doing something random.

granted, I have had a freakishly large amount of homework and papers and assignments and all of the goodness that comes along with school. but i could be studying in a group or in a public place.

i chose solitude.

if this were a year or two ago, i would think that i was lame and uncool for spending time just me, myself, and i.

now, thats not really the case.

i know that i am not alone.

I think that being comfortable when youre alone is when you are finally almost comfortable with yourself.

getting to be comfortable with yourself is a huge accomplishment.

so. lets not fear solitude.

lets embrace it because you're really not ever alone.